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where do I begin and where do I go from here?

i wish i was a song right now, sad and poetic. but i'm just sad, not even angry, just sad.

jewel's on repeat. ...wanna make you near me always.
i love staring into space nowadays. good for my nerves and my heart.
the thought of not knowing terrifies me. im terrified of the future. im terrified of what else could possibly hurt this way, and what else can i not anticipate. i thought i'd rather know nothing than know the truth.

in the wee hours of the morning, coming home straight from work, i have decided that yes, it's about time i take care of me.